keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
-Meredith Grey


how true is that? It's like some sick form of torture, self-mutilation if you will. Except it's emotional, spiritual, not physical. There are no physical scars. Only emotional ones.

I just finished my quiet time, and I feel amazing. I can't even begin to describe the way it feels, that incredible relief knowing that even though I messed up, I'm not ruined. Though I don't know if I was ever really worried about being "ruined." I think it was more the worry that I would feel like that forever.

His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life. Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5