lying in the darkness, eyes closed tight. the deafening silence takes over the mind. there is no pleasure, nor is there pain. just the numb. it is hard to comprehend, and hard to figure out. what is to blame for this numbness? every fiber of being has faded away. there only remains one hope. aside from that, all emotions are gone. they come and go in short bursts. but alone in the dark, eyes closed tight, with the deafening silence, there is nothing.

fear

do you think it's possible to hurt so much, that finally your body just says Enough! and your emotions just shut down?

I think I've reached that point

it kind of scares me. Part of me feels like i'm making a huge deal out of nothing. The other part feels like this isn't as important to me as it should be.

fear of the unknown.

fear of losing someone so important to me.

fear that someone is too important to me.

fear that I won't be as important to that someone anymore.

fear of the unknown.